When I was about 16, I remember reading Hebrews and writing in the margin of my Bible that "disobedience = unbelief." I don't have that Bible anymore, though I wish I did, but I can still see my own handwriting there and remember how it had dawned on me.

My unbelief leads to my disobedience. Like Sarah gave Hagar to Abraham...I too have a lack of faith and end up with my own set of problems because of that.

I want to be better, but lately I feel so disheartened. Where is my heart? Why can't I believe God's promises and have trust in His goodness?

Lord, I do believe. Please help my unbelief.